sailortrance

I'm not really sure what's been holding me back from writing. I guess it's because I've been going through so much, but I really feel like now is a really important time for me. So here I am again. Hopefully I can make a habit of this. I know that I need the catharsis. Okay, so for the most part, I've been staying out of trouble lately. Which is way different than this time last year. Honestly, so far, this year is quite a bit better than last year. Maybe not in terms of money or love, but in terms of general mental health, and happiness, I'm doing way better. I know that the rest will come with time. I hope so at least. I've been in a cycl

So, there are a lot of new things in my life these days. I have a new job, a new laptop and a new guitar just to nae a few. Not really sure what this all means in the long run. Aside from, the fact that once again, I have a pretty good reason to start writing again. In terms of romance- because- isn't it always the heart of the matter? I find my self more than estranged from the one person I really feel anything for. I don't know why- but it's like my mistakes in the past have turned her heart cold towards me- and mine cold to the world. That isn't to say that I don't feel anything- but someone asked me yesterday- "Are you in some kind of de